MY STEPS UP FROM THAT SANDTRAP SLUMP

This is probably by far the most honest blog post I might be putting out so far but I’m happy to be back on my keys again.  It did just occur to me, why do I have wait to be in a completely better place before actually getting back to you guys?  I’ve finally managed to scribble this reminder onto my brain — I don’t need to become better before having something valuable to say.  Not everything in my life needs to be picture perfect for me to share what’s close to my heart with you.  Besides, my experience of deciding to kick the bucket and get up and make an opportunity for myself may or may not help some of you out there.  God’s grace and blessings have been revealed in the most unexpected ways for me…however He just might be waiting for you to take the first step and get up.

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Winona Ryder, Reality Bites 1994

The FOMO (Fear-Of-Missing-Out) during my freelancer blues while looking left and right at every other freelancer or influencer was paralyzing me and actually making me miss out and get stuck.  My mistake was I looked beyond MY lane.  Suddenly everyone was posing and posting non-stop about anything and everything and where they were at.  I had never hit a WALL like this and it was new to me.   Read on for the full post and see the steps I took to reach higher ground.


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THE WORD “PERFECT”

In the last couple of months I’ve been working and doing makeup work in the offline world to make ends meet.  I almost said “real” world but I’d be quite wrong in saying the blogging world isn’t any more real than a dutiful desk job we can all be thankful for.  I was coasting through and snagging threads of what I was trying to weave into a prosperous adult life but there were just some things left hanging in the balance that needed my attention.  We had to clean out the thought attic.  There’s this word most humans fear, the word “PERFECT”.  I think deep inside many of us can’t stand it for real.  Nobody really likes being reminded of something they’re not.  I think we needn’t fear it though because I recently remembered that “perfect” is also an action word and not just a descriptive word.

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To “perfect” is to work at and finish or make something as close to being complete as possible and to be “perfect” is to be finished completely.  I never managed to put up a post for Spectrum bazaar because I felt back then that the event, while pretty, didn’t particularly strike a unique chord in me that day.  I never delete pictures if I can help it just in case they can support something I want to say.  One of the key words and phrases among the varied definitions of the word “perfect” are “complete” and “lacking nothing”.  I’ve had my heartstrings pulled this month by the word “perfect” and also felt my Spirit telling me to no longer be afraid of this word.  I just need to embrace what it means and the verse above that helps me in this does not contain the word “perfect” itself but bears its essence “I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.” Philippians 4:13  We are only able to attain perfection with the guidance of the One Who lacks nothing.

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DROPPING A LINE WITH PIZZA AND I’M FINE

Hello, all of you, I know it’s been like two weeks.  In a very gradual, slightly reluctant way I decided to take a break from blogging not because something happened or anything like that but because real life concerns were at hand.  I just had to take a break from all of it and get me pretty bum back on some work.  On this end, all the online media was just overtaking my brain, pressure to keep up with all this “influencing” and even some “insincerely influential” stuff was rising in a not so healthy way inside me.  It was affecting how I planned to produce posts, and take photos…some of you who blog know this feeling.  Today everyone wants something from talking about something or showing off something.  That’s real life and you need to ride the wave to stay in this.  It wasn’t like that for me when I began this blog before so I just managed to paddle back up to the surface for a quick breath.  Blogging burnout is a bummer, but I just needed to take a lengthy refresh…and perhaps have some pizza from Caruso on hand-painted Italian crockery.

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There was also a highly unpleasant situation where due to unfortunate circumstances we didn’t have power in our rented apartment for two weeks.  Lately, I have been living though without wondering what products I just needed to slap on my face because of some important things that needed my attention…and while it was completely important to get back to loving all that good stuff  it was beginning to feel redundant.  I just hit the reset button for all of it to feel new again.  So here, peace and pizza to you and yes, you still got me!  The blog’s here to stay.… To full post & COMMENTS...

WHEN THE SKY DIMS

I’m an artist and a writer.  When circumstances start to overwhelm me I tend to spiral quite quickly because I’m so imaginative.  I imagine things and I describe them…even to myself…which can sometimes be an annoying, wasteful combination.  Sometimes I dread the strangest things even with no proof on the horizon.  This doesn’t happen all the time, but I am human and I visualize extremely well.  Over the last year and a half though I’ve trained myself to do something as soon as the most fleeting spell of sky dimming thoughts loom overhead.  You don’t sit pretty ’til things turn pitch black, you don’t comprehend, you don’t overthink while plucking daisies in one hand, Alice, you run at the first sight of shade.

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It isn’t escape, it isn’t flight, it’s common sense.  Just move somewhere else.  Strap balloons to your mind palace and transfer!  You don’t belong under darkness and dispelling darkness isn’t your job description, it’s His.  You can certainly try going all Gandalf-versus-Balrog but sometimes it’s just simpler to cease coddling the existence of darkness. What you need to be doing is focusing all your energy on unleashing light.  By no means am I saying that you’re not supposed to face your problems, letting light in begins exactly with the tough stuff, tackling each step.  Our wrong assumption is always that the “to-dos” constitute the darkness over us, they do not.  Focus on untangling each knot instead of finding yourself stuck in a looping monologue of how each knot sucks.  You’ll get somewhere, as long as you stay somewhere bright so you can see exactly what it is you’re doing.  Stay in the light.

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1 John 1:5-7 NKJV

“5 This is the message which we have heard from Him and declare to you, that God is light and in Him is no darkness at all. If we say that we have fellowship with Him, and walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth. But if we walk in the light as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus Christ His Son cleanses us from all sin.”

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A REAL LIFE RAMBLE

Currently, yes I have started editing my vlog on my first full facial, stay alert for that one.  I know I won’t produce a proper edit if I force finish it before midnight so I must as well just…talk to you guys.  When was blogging anything more than sending your own shiny thought bubble out into the world?  Or perhaps, a place to let out some emo steam.  I remember vaguely when I last felt the way I feel now which is utterly pressured and just a tad bit discouraged about somethings but not entirely, this is not related to blogging but more on some real life things I need to get done other than the blogging, hence this short hiatus (short only because of delays).

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UP FINE ARTS BLOCK BATCHMATES AND BEYOND: Dan Matutina (Twisted Fork), Me (Bless My Bag) Marielle Nadal (Craft MNL), Bernice De Leon Yumul (Plus63)

Back then I was a senior in university (blockmates above reunited about 4 years ago), I was on the university wide student council, and in the running for honors (but barely).  It didn’t help either that year that my general ed subjects sometimes felt just as taxing as my majors and that I contracted dengue fever in the first semester of thesis.  There were certain days that felt like things were going to tumble down on me the next morning (sheer number of things to do and classes etc) and at a wee hour in the morning I’d glance at the clock while being not yet done and sometimes I felt sort of in a bind.  The things I needed to get done were in venues so far away from each other I had to plan my life around that.  Anyway today I need to stop looking at all these to dos as a web and need to focus on snapping each tiny strand.  I’ll get through this, I’ll get every single thing done.  Oh, April, I’m so not ready for you with all these tickboxes still not ticked, but will endeavor to be and I shall overcome.  Oh, and you’re welcome for the emo steam.… To full post & COMMENTS...

ALMOST SPEECHLESS SUNDAY

Taken from another Sunday a couple of weeks ago this post is going up directly from bed, but I’ll have to get ready in a bit because we’re leaving AGAIN this time spending a clan afternoon together to remember my late Lolo’s birthday.  This week was a whirlwind one transportation wise…a lot of going to and fro and frankly, it can be mentally tiring and disorienting going back and forth(I won’t say physically because I’m comfortably transported at all times) especially choosing what bags and things to take with you because you’re posted at both ends you practically need to take half your life with you to get a lot done because of the traffic.

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I almost got sick but swiftly slept on it with a paracetamol so that didn’t happen, thankfully.  I’ve had to have my head down on some errands.  I’ve hardly had two minutes together because of this week to sit with my beloved BIR tax receipts on excel…that seems endless.  I’ve hardly even checked blogs and vlogs I normally read because I just couldn’t give up the time.  Mindset shaken and stirred I still wanted to give you guys a glimpse from the South today of Mom doing her thing at home when she has time to do it, who thought fresh labuyo chili could make such a nice arrangement?  And yes, she wears white even at home.  I’ll be back on the beauty bum soon with a new video for you if all goes well.  Come to think of it I haven’t even worked out this week since last Saturday’s spinning session at Saddle Row…does choosing to walk 4 blocks at noon instead of taking Uber in Fort and Alabang count?  Ugh.… To full post & COMMENTS...

WHAT DO YOU WANNA SEE ON bMb?

Did you notice?  While I can I’ve been making the effort to post daily …but once in awhile my fountain of ideas on what to post can have a dry spell.  So I’m here to ask you all the question: What would you like to see more of on Bless My Bag?

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Hit me up in the comments below, if you don’t have an idea, just come on over and say hi for the sake of it, and tell me what you do like about the blog and what’s been making you come back for more.  Topics I’d be willing to tackle are beauty, style, home and lifestyle, food, productivity and even…let’s get really game, relationship topics.  I’d like to hear more from you guys, to be honest, I love my readers but you guys are quite a silent lot, REALLY,…sooo quiet, except when there are giveaways, hahaha peace out.  No really, I’d love to hear from you, let me know anything in the comments below, and yes English, Tagalog, or both please :).… To full post & COMMENTS...