MY STEPS UP FROM THAT SANDTRAP SLUMP

This is probably by far the most honest blog post I might be putting out so far but I’m happy to be back on my keys again.  It did just occur to me, why do I have wait to be in a completely better place before actually getting back to you guys?  I’ve finally managed to scribble this reminder onto my brain — I don’t need to become better before having something valuable to say.  Not everything in my life needs to be picture perfect for me to share what’s close to my heart with you.  Besides, my experience of deciding to kick the bucket and get up and make an opportunity for myself may or may not help some of you out there.  God’s grace and blessings have been revealed in the most unexpected ways for me…however He just might be waiting for you to take the first step and get up.

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Winona Ryder, Reality Bites 1994

The FOMO (Fear-Of-Missing-Out) during my freelancer blues while looking left and right at every other freelancer or influencer was paralyzing me and actually making me miss out and get stuck.  My mistake was I looked beyond MY lane.  Suddenly everyone was posing and posting non-stop about anything and everything and where they were at.  I had never hit a WALL like this and it was new to me.   Read on for the full post and see the steps I took to reach higher ground.


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THE WORD “PERFECT”

In the last couple of months I’ve been working and doing makeup work in the offline world to make ends meet.  I almost said “real” world but I’d be quite wrong in saying the blogging world isn’t any more real than a dutiful desk job we can all be thankful for.  I was coasting through and snagging threads of what I was trying to weave into a prosperous adult life but there were just some things left hanging in the balance that needed my attention.  We had to clean out the thought attic.  There’s this word most humans fear, the word “PERFECT”.  I think deep inside many of us can’t stand it for real.  Nobody really likes being reminded of something they’re not.  I think we needn’t fear it though because I recently remembered that “perfect” is also an action word and not just a descriptive word.

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To “perfect” is to work at and finish or make something as close to being complete as possible and to be “perfect” is to be finished completely.  I never managed to put up a post for Spectrum bazaar because I felt back then that the event, while pretty, didn’t particularly strike a unique chord in me that day.  I never delete pictures if I can help it just in case they can support something I want to say.  One of the key words and phrases among the varied definitions of the word “perfect” are “complete” and “lacking nothing”.  I’ve had my heartstrings pulled this month by the word “perfect” and also felt my Spirit telling me to no longer be afraid of this word.  I just need to embrace what it means and the verse above that helps me in this does not contain the word “perfect” itself but bears its essence “I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.” Philippians 4:13  We are only able to attain perfection with the guidance of the One Who lacks nothing.

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WHEN THE SKY DIMS

I’m an artist and a writer.  When circumstances start to overwhelm me I tend to spiral quite quickly because I’m so imaginative.  I imagine things and I describe them…even to myself…which can sometimes be an annoying, wasteful combination.  Sometimes I dread the strangest things even with no proof on the horizon.  This doesn’t happen all the time, but I am human and I visualize extremely well.  Over the last year and a half though I’ve trained myself to do something as soon as the most fleeting spell of sky dimming thoughts loom overhead.  You don’t sit pretty ’til things turn pitch black, you don’t comprehend, you don’t overthink while plucking daisies in one hand, Alice, you run at the first sight of shade.

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It isn’t escape, it isn’t flight, it’s common sense.  Just move somewhere else.  Strap balloons to your mind palace and transfer!  You don’t belong under darkness and dispelling darkness isn’t your job description, it’s His.  You can certainly try going all Gandalf-versus-Balrog but sometimes it’s just simpler to cease coddling the existence of darkness. What you need to be doing is focusing all your energy on unleashing light.  By no means am I saying that you’re not supposed to face your problems, letting light in begins exactly with the tough stuff, tackling each step.  Our wrong assumption is always that the “to-dos” constitute the darkness over us, they do not.  Focus on untangling each knot instead of finding yourself stuck in a looping monologue of how each knot sucks.  You’ll get somewhere, as long as you stay somewhere bright so you can see exactly what it is you’re doing.  Stay in the light.

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1 John 1:5-7 NKJV

“5 This is the message which we have heard from Him and declare to you, that God is light and in Him is no darkness at all. If we say that we have fellowship with Him, and walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth. But if we walk in the light as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus Christ His Son cleanses us from all sin.”

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AFTER YOU, LOLO

My Lolo Dony left us last week, it was his due season.   Apparently, here lay proof all along that he was officially my first makeup client.323754_10150957272521767_447317980_o

I’m his first grandchild, though people usually think I’m the third or the fourth because I don’t look older than the next 3, haha.  Read on if you feel like it.  I thought it high time for a good ramble dedicated to my grandfather.… To full post & COMMENTS...